Transexual Man - Buck Angel FTM Pornstar

Hi Buck,

Saw you on a tv programme and found your website.
I'm a 22 year old ftm. Had metoidioplasty done 1,5 years ago.
Just want to say that I admire your guts to be so open about your
identity and body. Do you not find it hard without lower surgery? I
couldn't wait for my metoid. However you feel, I really admire your
guts. You're a strong man!

Hugs!

i. from México, i writte in spanish, becouse i don't wanna express by myself in wrong way, please.. translate to english. please!!!

Soy mexicano, homosexual de 34 años, ví un especial onde sales en la tv Howard Stern y en una actitud MUY VALIENTE, y en un estado de ánimo muy TRANQUILO, CALMADO, y con MUCHO TEMPLE, demostraste lo que eres ante el mirar atónito de personas que en mi muy personal punto de vista no entendieron nada, fuiste un completo CABALLERO, y UN VERDADERO VARON, al demostrar ACTITUD, TEMPLE Y SEGURIDAD.

Sinceramente tu seguridad se refleja, aunque yo pienso que en ese programa de plano fueron muy groceros contígo, yo habia buscado información de tí, por mirar una página de transexuales, y creo que tu actitud es muy valiente, ya que yo como homosexual, admito la tenacidad de una persona como tú, que no es ninguna caricatura de un hombre, y como dices estas orgulloso de tu vagina, y creo que eso te da la seguridad.

Vi un video tuyo, muy fuerte hablando en escenas sexuales, pero creo que como tú mismo dices, eres el primero en hacer ese tipo de pornografia, que para mi es excelente.

Te puedo decir que yo al ser homosexual no pienso en la transexualidad como una opcion ya que me gusto como varon, y que como varon te puedo decir que eres un hombre muy atractivo, muy carismático, que !!!wow¡¡¡ luces excelente, independientemente de tu muy buen cuerpo, es la actitud de tu persona la que sobresale de, digamóslo así, la testosterona que llevas dentro..., sinceramente me caíste muy bien.!!!

TE FELICITO..!!! UN SALUDO DESDE ORIZABA, VERACRUZ, MEXICO.....

P.D. como hombre, eres muy guapo.. te lo dice otro varon que gusta de varones.. y te veo como eso como otro varon.

Hey!

Just came across your site and am truly amazed. I'm not sure if you've ever thought of this, but if YOU got pregnant, you would be a fucking millionaire! A man (who by all appearances IS a man) with a uterus and ovaries, carrying a child ... (because, of course you are genetically female and still have all your "girl parts") Holy shit ...

Anyway, I wanted to say "hi" and I think you're amazing. (I'm a genetic female and I can honestly say I have never seen something like this before. I have seen many M to F transexuals, but never F to M.) Do you plan to have surgery (down below) to complete your transformation at some point?

Have a great day!

Hey Buck! Just wanted to say you are SUCH a huge hero to me. I'm a teenage FTM and I'm comfortable in my masculinity even though I don't look it but people give me shit for it. I think you're so amazing for standing up and being exactly who you want to be no matter what people think and being so secure in your body and achieving how you always dreamed of looking! You make me feel like there's always hope and you even make me feel proud to be trans rather than a biological guy. Thank you so much, you're incredble. Keep up the good work man! x

Hi,

You of course don't know me and you are getting this email as a result of your work as a porn star. I've loved all the small trailers you have done. I also listened to your interviews as many as I could find.

I'm impressed and you made me cry. Cry with that special kind of joy/grief, relief that comes with self acceptance and love.
You are the first sexual images of myself that I have ever had. I was starting to wonder if I will ever be with anyone again since I came out. I'm having a harder time crying at all since I started T in Nov. and I"m pre-op, but your work did it man.

I"m FTM, and I'm old. 47. It took me that long to figure it out with all the 'help' I got, besides the other issues that are part of figuring things out for me and where I came from. My dad drank too. Since he has died, I have had much better conversations and he comes in my dreams, I think helping me out in my transition. I grew up with him, riding motorcycles and taking them apart and back together again. It was cool to hear that your dad supports you and celebrates you!!

I've sent your interview with Ian Harvie to my girlfriend who has been going into struggles over my coming out.
We've been together for 13 years, raised my nephew who came to us at age 9 and is now 21 and grown up.
She isn't ready to see my 'clit' pics, since it has been growing.
I've been in Seattle for the last 2 1/2 years studying acupuncture, but this transition was part of the struggles I was having at the school, that led to me not making it. It was an intense program that I as a person I needed more support, but wasn't getting it.
They wanted me to be more professional. Whatever that meant. Basically, later, they tell me that I needed to shave my small beard, that is just a part of me, and I don't think about it. So, I was dealing with some discrimination there.
Well, that's why I'm here and my partner is still in Alaska. Where I want to be, if we can work out our transition .

It helps if I'm home for sure, but as it is, I'm in Seattle getting good support.

Anyway, the interview has been really helpful to her.

How it affected me seeing a model of someone who is proud of who they are!!! And Trans!!, was to really turn a curve that I couldn't see that was in the road.
I have been going to the group at Ingersoll, and I haven't heard any of this kind of pride that you have shared. This is all on top of my meeting a really cool mtf. She really is awesome, She has been doing spiritual work for the last 30 years and has been honored and respected by the Native people who she is in relationship with. Her name is Finicia and she is really beautiful.
http;//www.pullingforwildflowers.org.

I mention her becasue there are very few people who do honor trans people. But she honors herself, and that was beautiful to see.

I now can love my pussy, well, even more! I see that I can still be the man I am and be proud, not letting anyone f*k with me. I've known a long time that penis and clits are basically the same, but the clit is more spread out throughout the pelvic floor and vagina.
Like a grasshopper! So, I'm in total agreement with you. I don't want no-one messing with my clit! I hope that mine can grow of course:-)

I am so inspired by your work, and I'm in a hiatus in my work, that I am seriously considering the kind of work you are doing.
I see that this has been healing. I id as a healer, but of a deep natured kind. This culture needs a lot of healing,
I like sex too, I'm not too shy, I think I can do it. But, it will have to wait some time. I still need to go through the transition, grow some hair, work on my muscular, get official. It will come.

I'll order some of your films as soon as I can afford them, meanwhile, I'm spreading the word.

Thank you very much!. May you be well blessed in your friends and family,


"I am selfish, impatient, and a little unpredictable. I make mistakes, sometimes I am out of control, and at times a bit hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best." -adapted from a Marilyn Monroe quote

I first heard about you by accident happened across you while net browsing one night. I have been absolutely amazed ever since. As time moves on and the crosseyed look very very very slowly simmers down on trans-sexual people, its wonderful to see someone so secure and happy with themself. We are told as children we can be anything we want to be all we have to do is try our best, and to live our lives to the best and happiest we can. YOU have done just that. Don't ever look back look to the stars cause that truly is the limit for you!

hey Buck..... I'm a big fan and I have all your DVDs.. let me ask you a question. I love your PERVERT tatoo on your back. I'm getting ready to do the same one on my ass. I'm having trouble getting a printable version so my tatoo artist can put it on my ass. where can i go to get that? Also I've gotten T shirts off you web page.... But I really would like the option to get that PERVERT as it appears on your body on the back of a shirt and you need to add black sleeveless T's to the choices. Us muscle boys want to show off our other tatoos.... Your HOT and I cant get enough of you and your hot tatooed ass- FUCKING YUM- keep up the good work.....

Hey Buck,

I was just watching a programme that you featured on (Sexcetera) which may be relatively old but that's not the point.

My point is that I think you have a great message about just being yourself. Being comfortable with who you are and enjoying yourself and your body.

Just wanted to say - good for you! I think you look great, come across so well and embody the ideal of being comfortable in your own skin.

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I know this address is intended to elicit prospective performers, I wondered if I might ask you a few questions?
Are you attracted to men or women? Are men who find you attractive as a man put off by your lack of male endowment? I am fascinated by you and I think what you offer our sexual culture is fantastic and groudbreaking. I applaud your fearlessness.

Hi Buck! I'm 21, And almost 8 months pregnant... 5'4, and 120lbs when im not pregnant. I have a really bubbley outgoing personality. I am from Somerset, KY. I have wanted to be in the porn business for a long time, I think it is something I would be good at. I have been doing it independantly for a little while now, I make videos of myself for this man I know who is 73 years old... he only pays me $75.00 each video, and I know that I am getting ripped off and that there is more money out there to be made from this type of work.. do you have any suggestions on how I can get into the professional side of porn? I am willing to try anything. And willing to begin Anytime. Thanks!!

hi ,a friend just told me of you,had to check you out ,WOW,i think you are an incredible turn on .your body is amazing ,im getting excited thinking of it. will be adding your dvd's to my collection .

Heey Buck,

Im Jessie(21) From the Netherlands,i saw you in the tv show from jensen,And the first thing i thought was maybe i can do that to,I really got respect for you because you made you're self in what you want to be.
Since child i always felt it too that i've got more boy than girl things on my mind.
i also work out a lot in the gym and really like sports.
I think we got a much in comen.
sorry for my bad-english,that's not my strongest side,but i hope you understand me well.
And i hope i can make the big stap that you made too,because over here i think most people wont accept it..
Nah if you like too write me back i really apriciate that because im a fan of you;):P

Hi Buck -

I'm not a gay man or a porn fan, but I think you are cool as hell!

Don't let the haters get you down.

I just wanted to tell you that I just saw the episode of "Secret Lives of Women". I want to commend you for telling your story. You are an amazing person and I wish you all the best!!!!

Buck you are one fine ass stud plus i hope to meet you and get your autograph because i think it is awesome to have such an intellegent person like you to be you and not change anything for anyone plus i love your tatts and the facial hair is a turn on for me

Hi Buck,

I just tripped over your website, and it really did impress me. I mean you. I was just watching your pictures and I thought "Man, he's a guy to make out with"... I like your looks, man, you look awesome. It shows how much care you put into being a man. It looks perfect. Tell you what? If I knew I could look so hot, I would follow this path instantly.
But I'm not as brave... so I'll just stick to this body and try to make the best out of it.
Honestly, I don't know what to make out of it.
But I'm I heard about you. You're really an idol, man. You can be really proud of yourself.

I read somewhere that you used to get some hate mail. I guess you found a way not to care about that. And that's what it's all about. Going your own way, no matter what. Let them talk. What do they know anyway? Who cares what they say?
I showed your picture to some people. Most of them thought you were quite strange. And they'd go "oooh, that's not supposed to be", "oooh, that's not the way god planned it"
- I guess you've had your share of these comments.
Just wanted to express, that I would always stand up for people like you, cause you are able to make your dreams come true, which is something people like me barely do.

So, thanks for making me smile and making me think about stuff and for doing what you do.
Way to go.

Take care!

Deep in the Brazillian forest a couple of hot, horny guys find a quiet place to get each other off. A blowjob, a rim job, and lots of hot fucking until the guys shoot their hot jizz all over each other. Another couple of guys set out to wash a car but are overtaken by the sight of each other's wet bodies. The car hood becomes the perfect place for one to lay the other down so he can bury his face deep into the other's hot ass, getting it all primed and ready so he can give him a good pounding. Meanwhile, a hunky sunbather finds a friend to put sustain lotion all over his hot body. The heat, the lotion and the touching suddenly make these two guys so horny they decide to go down on each other right then and there, for anyone to watch.

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He is one of the most famous porn stars in the world with an impressive collection of films under his belt. He has been photographed and captured by many artists worldwide. He is ruggedly handsome, layered in stunning tattoos and his pierced sexy muscled body is a stunning example of manhood. But there are plenty more other reasons why Californian born Buck Angel is so captivating and fascinating. Buck is a self made man like no other. He was born and raised as Susan.

“A lot of people ask me what it was like growing up as a girl… it’s funny because I was never raised that way,” says Buck.

“I was a tomboy. I wore boys clothes and played outside a lot. Everyone always treated me like a boy growing up so always felt I was one.”

Susan was tall, beautiful, athletic and graceful. She was a star athlete, excelling in track and field sports. She also had a promising career as a professional model that saw her going overseas to Europe and the UK. But all of those opportunities were slowly destroyed with the gradual onset of puberty, which was totally traumatic for her.

“All those hormones rushed around my body, which quickly started to change and I began menstruating. I grew breasts. I felt this utter disconnection from my body, which really didn’t feel like mine anymore. What was happening within my body didn’t match up with how I saw myself.”

People also changed the way they treated Susan. She was always attracted to girls and suddenly she was expected to like boys, wear dresses and expected to be and act like a girl – something that felt quite foreign.

“What was worse was that I felt so alone in all of that. I couldn’t express myself or my feelings to anyone else. You have to understand that it was a very different time… people weren’t understanding of ‘gay’ let alone ‘transsexual’. Everyone else seemed at ease and perfectly happy with what was going on with their bodies. I was really depressed and I went inside myself. I started acting out and becoming incredibly self destructive… but I didn’t know what else to do.”

Susan started drinking heavily, using drugs, and acting out in self-destructive ways. Her distraught parents helped her get into an expensive $30,000 rehab center where she was pampered while being given a chance to beat her addictions. It didn’t work too well, and within days of being out of the program, she was using drugs again. Her parents had enough, and kicked her out of home. It was something that Buck says needed to happen.

Luckily androgyny was in style, and with Susan’s gorgeous face and tall lean body she easily scored modeling gigs, gaining opportunities to travel overseas to Europe and the UK. It was a good excuse to run away, but still Susan couldn’t leave behind the battle going on inside. Everyone around her said that he had what it took to become a supermodel. It wasn’t long before the drugs, alcohol and her behaviour was out of control again and she was sent packing back to the US.

Homeless, living on the streets, hustling and prostituting to get by, Susan hit rock bottom. She was sent to another rehab program.

“This was a community rehab center for those on the edge, and it was really hard but the best thing that could have happened to me. The program made me take responsibility for my life and my actions. It also helped me realise where my real issues lay… it made me face and accept that I am a man,” says Buck.

With the program complete, Susan started officially living as a man. He got a job working in a warehouse; he got a girlfriend and started rebuilding his life. But it wasn’t till the fateful day when he came across the film Gendernauts that featured a female to male transsexual, that Buck realised that he needed to start the process of becoming a man, not just psychologically but physically.

“You’ve gotta understand that it was a very different time I lived in when I was going through all this. No one even knew female to male sex change surgery was even an option, especially me.”

You can imagine how much the realisation of that possibility changed my life! No one I knew had done it… and then I saw that amazing movie.”

Buck Angel’s body was at least ten years in the making – a slow, thought out and planned regimen of transformation that included psychiatry, hormones, surgery and a hell of a lot of gym sessions. Buck was in no rush, taking plenty of time to properly research and inquire about his options. Finding the right professional for each step with the right caring nurturing attitude was essential, but even then there were limitations.

“Anyone who knows me knows that I’m a total perfectionist. I mean, just look at my body, my chest surgery. Even looking at the latest surgical developments don’t really offer anything close to a real penis. There are often many complications, risk of infections after surgery, severe scaring and after all that, they aren’t that big. My toys are way better!” he laughs. “What I’ve got works perfectly and it gives me lots of options. I decided to keep my vagina. I’m still a man… just a man with a pussy.”

Is a man with a vagina still a man? Buck is quick to share his perspective on that.

“What is a man? If a man loses his genitals in say a car accident, are you not a man anymore? Of course you are. Being a man is more about what’s in your head than what your body looks like.”

The whole idea of transsexuals is largely an abstract concept to most people, many of whom have probably never consciously met a transsexual. The reason that Buck Angel is so challenging is that he makes those concepts real, and by his very existence throws our narrow definitions of gender into question. What is a man? How do you know you are one? What if you’re attracted to him – what does that make you?

Given that the gay and lesbian, transsexual and porn communities are often so marginalised and ostracised, you’d expect that Buck Angel would find acceptance or at least understanding there, but nothing could be further from the truth.

“Nearly all my lesbian friends disowned and rejected me during and after my change. They saw it as me rejecting my womanhood and lesbian sexuality… and they took that very personally. They were fine with me dressing butch, getting tatts and strapping down my breasts, but once it came to hormones and surgery it was a whole different story. I quickly learned who my real friends were, but that was a very isolating experience.

“To many of the trans activists, at least the ones in the States, I’m held up as an example of what not to be, and I’ve personally witnessed situations where some very nasty personal things have been said about me… painful, uninformed and hurtful things. They might show stills or clips from my movies and cast judgment, totally without context or without ever allowing me the right to share my perspective. It’s unfair and it’s a real shame too, because my point of view is valid.”

And then there was the porn industry that in the beginning was terrified of what Buck Angel represented. Studios and individuals simply refused to work with Buck initially. Buck wasn’t just a trans man who liked women, but also ‘loves being fucked by men’. There wasn’t really anyone out there like him and that was challenging. But in porn, money talks.

While working as a warehouse worker, Buck also found an interest in the Internet and web design. With his very supportive girlfriend, he started his own porn website which at first featured still images of himself and then eventually small amateur movies. So successful was the site that it brought enough attention to score a 12-picture deal with a porn studio; the first female to male transgender porn star to be signed up to a major studio. He made Cirque Noir with big gay porn studio Titan Men becoming the first transsexual to ever appear in one of their films. He also started creating his own films and online video content that has done outstandingly well. Films like Buckback Mountain, V For Vagina and Bang For Your Buck.

It wasn’t too long before the industry realised that a huge market that existed for the kind of porn that Buck was making and before long he had amounted a substantial filmography. It was also apparent that he was a brilliant performer. In 2007 Buck Angel was not only nominated for Transsexual performer of the year, but he actually took out the title. It was a proud day for Buck Angel.

Since that fateful award win, his career highlights include being a special guest at the infamous Black Party and being a performer in Stairway To Hell for the Jim Rose Circus. Buck has also been captured by various artists and photographers internationally. US photographer Joe Oppedisano captured an amazing image of Buck that he included in his publication Testosterone. When publishers said they did not want the image of Buck Angel in Testosterone, Oppedisano apparently said ‘either the picture stays or there will be no book’.

Buck is also one of 12 enigmatic people, including singer Michael Jackson and model Kate Moss, to have their entire body cast in gold by UK artist Marc Quinn. He has been interviewed by publications worldwide and has been a guest on countless television shows including talk show Maury Povich. Buck Angel is a phenomenon with legions of fans around the world, especially in Australia where he hopes to visit soon.

“It has always been a dream of mine to come to Australia. That is definitely something that I’d like to do soon. I have so many fans there… in fact it’s one of my biggest fan bases in the world,” says Buck. “I get the impression that you Aussies really understand where I’m coming from. I’d love to do Mardi Gras! It looks so amazing and I’d love to be a part of that.”

It’s the day before Buck’s birthday, and he ends the interview by reflecting on his life so far, and the wisdom he’s gathered along the way.

“You need to live your life on your terms, and not let other people tell you what’s right for you. You know what feels right for you. If people reading your article walk away with anything, I hope it’s that message.”

My trip to NYC is always fun. I love the city because it is so different than where I live in mexico and the people of NY are always so good to me. I flew in on thursday to perform at the BOX. I was in Los Angeles before to do some business and see family. I also started to do CrossFit. It's this new way of working out that is pretty amazing. I love going to the gym to pump weights but feel like I needed something new as my body is stuck and not really changing like I would like. So now I am fixing up my gym here to do more CrossFit along with my Yoga.

Saturday night before Gay Pride Sunday I did a couple hours hosting of open bar at the FWORD club in NYC. Formika and Jasper James were the hosts. I had such a great time and lots of fans came to see me. The one thing that I really loved was to see how diverse my fan base is becoming. There were all these girls who were so excited to see me and take photos with me.

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Lux from Fleshbot came to see me and so did my friend Andi and Caleb. It was great to hang out with them. After I took Lux with me to my performance at the BOX.

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Andi is a very old friend of mine and she is also the lead singer for the punkrock band Snap-Her. Her music is on my film V for Vagina. She rocks!!

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My buddies James P and Bryan who DJ in NYC love wearing my shirt to spin in. They sent me this photo of them spinning on saturday night. I love this T-shirt. Check out my shop to purchase it.

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This artist in NYC sent me this painting he did of me minus my tattoos. It's cool but I do like my body better with tattoos. What about you?

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So now I am back home in Mexico working on my next trip. I will be going to Smitten Kitten in Minn. to do a workshop and DVD signing. They are working on getting me a performance in a club as well. Looks like I have a pretty big fan base there. Who knew?? That is awesome.

I have also just been contacted by some Gay party promoters in Barcelona Spain to perform August 1. That sounds amazing as I have never been to Barcelona.

WOOF!!

Buck Angel