Transexual Man - Buck Angel FTM Pornstar

Hi Buck,

I'm sure you get plenty of emails telling you this - well, clearly - but I thought I'd throw in my appreciation-cents too.

I am a transsexual gay male. I'm really in the early stages of transitioning - I haven't had a session with a therapist of any sort yet, apart from a screening with a psychotherapist (I'm transitioning care of the National Health Service here in Britain). Nevertheless, I've been 'out' and living as male for the most part among most of my family and friends since November of 2008. I've always had a dream to be a male model, though I really doubt I'm good looking enough, and I love the photos I've seen of you. It's been inspirational.

When I decided to transition, I had one major concern: "bottom" surgery. My problem was that I didn't like the options available or the possibility of losing sensation for something that just wasn't for me. I respect other transmen who have metoidio/phalloplasty, it's their choice, but I always get frustrated when they (or non-trans people) assume I'm also planning to have one of these surgeries. I dunno how to say to them that I'm comfortable with my gear and using it with men; I started feeling like a bit of a madman. Then I came across you and other transmen who haven't had genital reconstruction, who were open and proud of their decision to forego it - for whatever reason - and I felt much more confident and comfortable about my own feelings.

So, thanks for being who you are, despite all the grief you must get from small-minded persons (trans and non-trans). You're a great man with a fuckin' fabulous body. I'll probably never get to meet you, so just thought I'd send this to say thank you. :)

- RH.

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Oh great handsome one,

I'm actually having coffee with a brand new transman and your name came into our conversation. We are wondering how you can "market" yourself as the man with a pussy. For my part, I find it very difficult to be a man and tell people I still have some of my originals parts (!!!!!). For many trans guys, having a vagina isn't something that we will advertise or even feel right about. How does your gay acting partner feel about sex scenes with you ? At some point, do they think that all transmen want to be penetrated or like frontal sex ? Do you feel, that you need to educate them about that ?

I know that you love your work and that you are really proud of all that you have achieved but I think that the trans community would really like that you specify that the way you live your sexuality doesn't reflect the sexuality of all transmen.

Hope to hear from you soon,

Take care

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WOOF!

BUCK

I had never heard of you until a week ago. In 24 hours time I saw you on 2 different tv channels, and heard you mentioned on Sirius radio. I think no matter what your chosen profession is, you are a great role-model. You are happy with your body (and rightly so), and you aren't ashamed of it.

Congratulations on your success while maintaining your true self.

Hi Buck,

My name is Gabriel and i'm a brazilian transmale. I believe i sent mail to you a long time ago, but it doesn't matter.

I always admired your work since i started seeing on the net. I was only able to see some photos of your work due to dial up net connection. Now i can see you talking and walking with a better net connection.

Besides admiring as a ground breaking transmale, i can now say that to me you r a very special human being, not because you r male, female or whatever, but because you help abandoned animals in Mexico.

I live in a city with a lot of them and my family and i rescued some dogs and cats from the streets. 9 dogs and three cats live with me, others were adopted, others put down to sleep due to diseases or hit and runs.

Being a ground breaking porn star is great, but at my eyes the help you give to these fellow brothers cannot be measured, and talks a lot more about the real man of character that you are.

I might sound corny but a cock is a peace of flesh, but a to have a heart, that is priceless.

I honestly hope that you keep growing as a porn star, being every day more successfull so you can keep helping more and more animals.

May you be always fortunate.

Peace

Gabriel.

Ps: It was good to see that i'm not the only one that let his dogs walk into their kitchen and around the house freely.

Hi Buck,
I just wanted to thank you! Before I heard of you and bought your videos I had never heard of an FTM guy before. Since then, I have moved to San Francisco. I have had the opportunity and met a lot of great guys and realized how much I love vaginal sex. Just wanted to let you know that I am a HUGE fan and think you're one of the hottest porn stars out there.

Much love!

Hi Buck, hows it going.

I think your videos are one of a kind! So what is it like to be a man with a pussy. Which bathroom do you use? If I could get a full body picture of you that woul be pretty cool.
So bye

Hey Buck! Just wanted to say you are SUCH a huge hero to me. I'm a teenage FTM and I'm comfortable in my masculinity even though I don't look it but people give me shit for it. I think you're so amazing for standing up and being exactly who you want to be no matter what people think and being so secure in your body and achieving how you always dreamed of looking! You make me feel like there's always hope and you even make me feel proud to be trans rather than a biological guy. Thank you so much, you're incredble. Keep up the good work man! x

Hi,

You of course don't know me and you are getting this email as a result of your work as a porn star. I've loved all the small trailers you have done. I also listened to your interviews as many as I could find.

I'm impressed and you made me cry. Cry with that special kind of joy/grief, relief that comes with self acceptance and love.
You are the first sexual images of myself that I have ever had. I was starting to wonder if I will ever be with anyone again since I came out. I'm having a harder time crying at all since I started T in Nov. and I"m pre-op, but your work did it man.

I"m FTM, and I'm old. 47. It took me that long to figure it out with all the 'help' I got, besides the other issues that are part of figuring things out for me and where I came from. My dad drank too. Since he has died, I have had much better conversations and he comes in my dreams, I think helping me out in my transition. I grew up with him, riding motorcycles and taking them apart and back together again. It was cool to hear that your dad supports you and celebrates you!!

I've sent your interview with Ian Harvie to my girlfriend who has been going into struggles over my coming out.
We've been together for 13 years, raised my nephew who came to us at age 9 and is now 21 and grown up.
She isn't ready to see my 'clit' pics, since it has been growing.
I've been in Seattle for the last 2 1/2 years studying acupuncture, but this transition was part of the struggles I was having at the school, that led to me not making it. It was an intense program that I as a person I needed more support, but wasn't getting it.
They wanted me to be more professional. Whatever that meant. Basically, later, they tell me that I needed to shave my small beard, that is just a part of me, and I don't think about it. So, I was dealing with some discrimination there.
Well, that's why I'm here and my partner is still in Alaska. Where I want to be, if we can work out our transition .

It helps if I'm home for sure, but as it is, I'm in Seattle getting good support.

Anyway, the interview has been really helpful to her.

How it affected me seeing a model of someone who is proud of who they are!!! And Trans!!, was to really turn a curve that I couldn't see that was in the road.
I have been going to the group at Ingersoll, and I haven't heard any of this kind of pride that you have shared. This is all on top of my meeting a really cool mtf. She really is awesome, She has been doing spiritual work for the last 30 years and has been honored and respected by the Native people who she is in relationship with. Her name is Finicia and she is really beautiful.
http;//www.pullingforwildflowers.org.

I mention her becasue there are very few people who do honor trans people. But she honors herself, and that was beautiful to see.

I now can love my pussy, well, even more! I see that I can still be the man I am and be proud, not letting anyone f*k with me. I've known a long time that penis and clits are basically the same, but the clit is more spread out throughout the pelvic floor and vagina.
Like a grasshopper! So, I'm in total agreement with you. I don't want no-one messing with my clit! I hope that mine can grow of course:-)

I am so inspired by your work, and I'm in a hiatus in my work, that I am seriously considering the kind of work you are doing.
I see that this has been healing. I id as a healer, but of a deep natured kind. This culture needs a lot of healing,
I like sex too, I'm not too shy, I think I can do it. But, it will have to wait some time. I still need to go through the transition, grow some hair, work on my muscular, get official. It will come.

I'll order some of your films as soon as I can afford them, meanwhile, I'm spreading the word.

Thank you very much!. May you be well blessed in your friends and family,


"I am selfish, impatient, and a little unpredictable. I make mistakes, sometimes I am out of control, and at times a bit hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best." -adapted from a Marilyn Monroe quote

Ok I know that not everyone in the world loves what I do. I would be an idiot to think otherwise. But when and article is written about the trans community and how there is this absence of trans men in porn and the article features only a photo of me( which they never asked to use) and also blurbs from everyone but me I find this a bit strange.

So I made a comment on the site about why I felt there was an absence of trans men in porn.
Well then I get these comments about me that are quite funny and a bit on the fucked up side. You know it is always on these boards that these people write shit about me, they never have the balls to either email me or confront me in person and that really pisses me off. But I guess when your a pioneer you are always going to have people jealous of your achievements. And this is what it looks like to me. Here are the comments..
Also, Buck's classist "bootstraps!!!" attitude toward the trans male community has reached epically comical proportions. Dude is a self-parody.
Hear hear! I admit, being a Trans man myself, I was interested in Buck Angel when I first heard of him, but what I've seen from him --both in jpeg and in attitude-- is something I'd rather not associate with. You're right, his "bootstraps!!!" attitude is totally classist (easy to say that when you're already sitting on a modest fortune), and in all honesty, I'm just not into his whole Bear-aesthetic, either. He's a parody of what a hint of extra testosterone "will do to ya'". I can't take him seriously, not even as an adult entertainer.

Now what makes people think I am sitting on a modest fortune? And if I am then it is all from my own hard work, Why is this a bad thing? You see why I get such a bad taste in my mouth from the "ftm Community" Jesus people I do more for your community than you can even imagine and not because I want anything but because I feel like doing community service is part of being a good pioneer. Fuck maybe I will just start donating my time and money to some other org.

Please take a minute to read the article and comment if you like.

Buck Angel