Transexual Man - Buck Angel FTM Pornstar

Hi Buck! How are you? My congratulations for your wonderful website and your movies! Could I ask you a question? I'm a bisexual boy (23 years old) from Seville (Spain) I was wondering if you are "available" 4 real sexual contacts too. It would be a dream 4 me to make real sex with you but I understand I'm far far away from you and there could be complications... I wait 4 your response! Thank you so much and sorry If I disturbed you... byeeeeeeeeee

Hi Buck,

I'm sure you get plenty of emails telling you this - well, clearly - but I thought I'd throw in my appreciation-cents too.

I am a transsexual gay male. I'm really in the early stages of transitioning - I haven't had a session with a therapist of any sort yet, apart from a screening with a psychotherapist (I'm transitioning care of the National Health Service here in Britain). Nevertheless, I've been 'out' and living as male for the most part among most of my family and friends since November of 2008. I've always had a dream to be a male model, though I really doubt I'm good looking enough, and I love the photos I've seen of you. It's been inspirational.

When I decided to transition, I had one major concern: "bottom" surgery. My problem was that I didn't like the options available or the possibility of losing sensation for something that just wasn't for me. I respect other transmen who have metoidio/phalloplasty, it's their choice, but I always get frustrated when they (or non-trans people) assume I'm also planning to have one of these surgeries. I dunno how to say to them that I'm comfortable with my gear and using it with men; I started feeling like a bit of a madman. Then I came across you and other transmen who haven't had genital reconstruction, who were open and proud of their decision to forego it - for whatever reason - and I felt much more confident and comfortable about my own feelings.

So, thanks for being who you are, despite all the grief you must get from small-minded persons (trans and non-trans). You're a great man with a fuckin' fabulous body. I'll probably never get to meet you, so just thought I'd send this to say thank you. :)

- RH.

Whoever says that getting tattooed does not hurt is full of it. It hurts! But my tattoo artist buddy Walt Clark is one of my favorite’s to get tattooed by because he is fast! I have been wanting to cover up a tattoo for a while but just never had time and never in New Orleans. So since I was here it was time. Here is the gallery of the tattoo time.

WOOF!!

Carlos here. Hope things are going really well for you. I
don't think I have yet congratulated you on your AVN Award so
Congratulations!!! I'm absolutely proud and thrilled for you.

Buck, I have a question for you Sir. My very masculine leather
Daddy (who is gay identified) is working through his issues of
me being a gay transman. Like you, I'm very comfortable with my
pussy as I see it as masculine and male as any other part of me.
To help him along, I told him to pick up your movie Cirque Noir
and he finally watched it 2 days ago. He was completely
overwhelmed with what he saw (he's never seen my pussy since
we've been involved) and blown away. Seeing you just added
another dimension to our relationship and I've encouraged him to
visit your site. I want to share what he wrote me:

"I watched CIRQUE NOIR. I found it and sat through the hole
thing. I'm feeling like I have missed something and not sure
what it is.

The over all film is great. Buck Angel. Lets just say that
problem no longer exists. I got very hard watching the last two
scenes with Buck Angel in them.

I'm so proud that you have someone like Buck to look up to.

Your Daddy feels very.... not sure right now. I'm stuck on
WOW!!!!"

Anyhow, my question is whether it would be okay if he contacted
you to ask you a few questions. He asked me to contact you
about that. Where he is located (east shores of Canada), it's
very isolating with very few people to share his thoughts with
regarding us dudes who are proud of their pussies. The other
transguys he knows hates their body, which I understand, so they
are not very good examples. Plus since you're both leathermen,
he won't have to do a lot of explaining about our leather family
lifestyle.

Let me know your thoughts. I appreciate you taking the time to
read my email. Have a good one.

WOOF!
Carlos

Back from performing at Wasteland in Amsterdam, Got beat up by security, my plane was delayed because of the volcano eruption but all in all I had a fabulous time. Made many new friends and rocked the house. So enjoy all the photos from the show..

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Where does one start with an email like this!? Honestly I am somewhat in shock and don't quite know where i even found information about you on the internet at all! To start, about myself, I am a straight female who was lucky enough to be born with the body i would have chose for myself (as in female born female). I acctually don't exactly "frown" at the porn industry, except that I don't believe a person in a relationship should feel the need for it. Maybe i should say if I myself am in a happy and sexually fulfilling relationship I myself do not even like looking at other people and am not sexually stimulated by anyone but my partner, and believe i should be more than enough for my partner also.... and so don't like porn if i find my partner in a lie to me after they said they agree with the "no porn rule".

Ok maybe I'm rambling. Porn is for some not for all, and I can be conflicted by my feelings towards it. What my whole point in emailing you was that i acctually think its quite an amazing accomplishment you have made. I would never enjoy the work you're doing for myself, sexually it would turn me off honestly, but you are the first man with a vagina to be famous enough that even a straight woman who doesn't look at porn has found out about you! I think that even if some people see moral issues involved in this, you're only trying to bring enjoyment to people, and recognition that men CAN exist even if they lack a penis or were even born without one or in your case born with a vagina! The fact that you are also an american, maybe you can effect a change in that sometimes closeminded country in their views on who is male or female (such as how some states require removal of female sex organs which is in my opinion close to torture at this time for some persons who wish to be recognized as male.... at least until the technology is greatly improved).

Again just good job on what you're doing, and most especially in that you are making yourself happy. It might not mean alot from some random stranger, but maybe just the fact that i am a female born female, totally straight (even if i wanted to be lesbian to make things easier im very much not attracted to females), and raised in a not always open minded part of the world (Southern Ontario Canada), maybe this fact might be a nice little boost to your ego that people who chose completely different lifestyles than you can see the good in what you are doing. I hope it helps since i have seen how people who chose the same lifestyle as you may nay-say.

I'd love to get a reply from you if at all possible. If not im just hopeful you acctually read this and at least sends positive feelings.

Best of luck in all your future

Hey, Buck,


I saw a bit about you on the TransitionalMale site, and I wasn't really happy with some of the negative comments you were getting. I thought they were really unfair. I decided to visit your site and learn more, and while I can't really say I'm a fan of your work (just not my sort of thing), I want to say that I am a fan of yours. I think that you've got a lot of guts to be doing what you're doing and leaving yourself open to criticism like you are. But I agree with you that there never has been anyone out there representing us and our sexuality the way you do. I watched your Q&A on your site today, and I think you really summed it up perfectly when you said it's not just about what's between your legs. I think that what you're doing is going to help show other ftms (and non-trans people, too) the same thing, and that can't be anything but helpful. Don't listen to anyone who tells you different.

This is an email I just received on my YouTube account about my Yale visit in the next day.It’s because of emails like this that it makes me so happy that I am going to speak. I often remember when I first started my work the ugly hate mail from the trans man community. So I just see how things have changed so much.

I will be posting daily from Yale( if I make it as it looks like the snow is shutting the east coast down)on my blog with pics!! Ok read the cool email below.

WOOF!!

Buck

Dear Buck,

I am a transguy at Yale. I wanted to say thank you for performing at Yale and tell you how excited I am that you are going to be educating my fellow students. I am a big fan of your work and have showed many friends your website to explain what a transperson after testosterone (and lots of hard work) looks like. I cannot tell you how excited I was to learn that you were coming to Yale!!! I also wanted to let you know how very grateful I am that you are willing to be so open about your sexuality and status as a transman. Your example has helped me to slowly come out to my family and friends and has helped me to see how beautiful my body can one day become.
However, I am very sorry about the comments you recently received from a Yale. I found it particularly disappointing and frustrating that a fellow student would write such hurtful things. Thankfully, those sorts of people are very much the minority at Yale. I am writing in part to let you know that there are many wonderful and accepting people at Yale that have made my college experience a very loving and caring one. I adore my friends and the queer community at Yale and I hope that you have a good time when you visit. Sadly, I will not be able to attend your event because I am abroad at the Yale in London program. I wish I could be there in person Otherwise, I would have been in the front row cheering. I wish I could be there in person, but I made my friends promise to go and give me a play by play of the event. Good luck next week!!!

Dear Buck,

My name is Kish Khan.

I'm pleased to hear of your success in this new dimension of porn.

I am a 26th years old transman of British Asian. I've got beige skin. I have done massage and escort work in the past but since my scars and experiencing very long delays on the NHS I haven't been able to continue my work.

I had my first stage phalloplasty but not my second stage. No balls and still have my pussy.

My doctor has referred me to plastic surgeon regarding the scars on my stomach, but it could take a while.

I am writing to you because I am interested in working in porn with you. Could please let me know if you are interested and, if so, how many trans guys are already working with you?


I have been waiting for a long time for my operation but also would like to get on with my life and this possible opportunity you talk about in your website.


Please feel free to ask me any questions

I am eager to know what direction to take at this point in my life and also if we could be any mutual benefit to each other

Regards,

Kish

Happy New Year!!

Wow I can’t believe it’s 2010. What a total trip. I have a great feeling about this year. Already so much happening for me it’s crazy. I am booked all the way to May.

So this year I have been nominated for both the AVN awards and the XBIZ awards. Both have nominated my film ULTIMATE FUCKING CLUB for Best Transsexual Release and I have been nominated for Transsexual Performer of the Year. See this year is already kicking ass.

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Also I am working on a new series that is going to blow everyone away. I am super excited about it. I am not going to let the cat out of the bag just yet but soon as I will be sending out a casting call.

Looking forward to a killer year and thanks to all of you for supporting me through out the years to help me get where I am!! WOOF!!

Mr. Angel, I just found out about you and I have to say, you've opened my eyes to something I was never sure could be... I could go on but that would be silly. I just wanted to bestow my praise and adoration upon you and ask a question or two, which I will understand completely if you don't/can't answer. Did you experience any negative effects from the process you went through to be yourself, such as side effects or problems? Also, how had you legal status changed (did your gender change legally or would it have to be?) I ask because I am married and would be afraid of voiding that, unless of course I found a loop hole?.. I digress though, clearly these are things I need to research for myself but I wanted some words of wisdom from someone as accomplished as you.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and have a great day!

Just returned from a month on the road. That was super intense. First I performed and showed a film a made exclusivly for the Edmonton Queer Arts Fest. called “THE BEST OF BUCK” Everyone loved it and I got 2 standing ovations. I was so nervous to watch how people reacted a just stood outside the filming. Then after I was called onstage to talk and answer questions about my work. that was fun as I really enjoying speaking to people.

The next day I was doing a live modeling show for artists. That was a blast and I had someone film that so I got some great footage for my reality show on buckangel.com.

Then I performed at steamworks where I did a live show and had a great write up on the show here on xtra.ca
But before the show Jackson who was one of the organizers of the show is also a photographer asked me to shot some photos with him. So of course I was excited( we have actually been trying to get that going for a while) I love the way they came out. I will be posting some later but here is a shot from behind the scenes.

From Edmonton I flew back to Mexico for one night to change my bags then off to Los Angeles to shoot for a new show on Spike TV.I was super excited as this was my first really mainstream tv show. I have been trying to get people to give me more of a chance on tv in the USA but they are so closed minded when it comes to a pornstar.

After that I was shooting for a new HBO show about the sex industry and then I did a 3 hour long interview with my buddy and co-author for my book Shaun Proulx. We shot at his hotel in west hollywood. Read the whole story on Shaun’s blog here.

Finally I got to meet for breakfast with my great friend Selene Luna. She just bought a new car, a mini!! She looks so hot driving it.

Then the next day I did a DVD signing at the Dyke bar Palms in WEHO. There is a club called Strapped there. loved meeting all my gay lady friends and spending time with them It’s so great to see my female fan base grow.

Ok this was probably the freakiest part of the trip..I got an email from Tyra banks Show and they asked me to fly to NYC for the show. I was already scheduled for a show the next night so I had to fly the redeye that night and do the show that next day to be wisked back to the airport to get my butt to Austin Young’s show downtown called BEYOND DRAG. I actually did it! But I am paying the price now. I am so exhausted. that is really hard on the body! I will talk more about the show later, But it airs in Feb.

Then the next day I was off to SF where I did a DVD signing at my friend Paul King’s tattoo shop Cold Steel on Haight street. I had a really great turn out. Amazing people came to see me.

Finally I am home and now resting up for my next trip which will be the Athens, Greece Porn Film Festival.

Oh one last thing! My friend Tristan Taormino mentioned me in one of her new interviews in Fleshbot. Check out the interview on her it’s great and see what she said.

WOOF!!

Buck Angel

While in Los Angeles I was asked to the studio of the radio station KPFK to do an interview. The studio has been around since the 40’s so there is so much history there. The show is a GBLT show that airs every Monday night 7-8pm called “I am are you” Here is the link to the show and my interview starts about half way in. But listen to the whole show as it’s great!!

http://archive.kpfk.org/parchive/mp3/kpfk_091130_190030imru.MP3

Off to the Tyra Banks Show I will post that as soon as I return and find out when it will air!

WOOF!!

Buck

Greetings from Russia

Dear Buck Angel!

With greater interest I have looked your remarkable sites. You well done! You have made yourself in the best kind. I can envy only.
Let’s give we shall get acquainted, and may be we’ll become friends or partners?
My name is Yuri. I’m a transgender man (bisexual man which dreams to look so as you). I’m married. My wife - Valentine - all knows and understands.
I live in the Volga region (Russia) - in the country where criminal dictatorship corrects. Therefore, that is connected with sexual desires and aspirations, here it is very difficult to realize much. Before I not bad cooperated with «Boy’s own» of Stephen Whittle (UK), with «Touchstone» (Bristol, UK), with «Transformation» magazine (USA), etc. But, unfortunately, I have connections with many persons: 4 years I was in constant travels on the country.
Certainly, if in Russia there was other conditions and other authority, you could be here, as «the first guy». I would assist to generate here for you good image. It is the quite good market. I hope, that times will change soon.
Now about myself a little.
I am a professional journalist (the former military journalist), the writer, the poet-satirist, a scripwriter, the actor of a colloquial genre, the expert on advertising and carrying out of show-programs; and also - the cartoonist and the schedule.
I attach some my author’s charge, graphic works and cartoons (as example) to the letter.
I search for good friends and producers in other countries with which it is possible to do great affairs.
Whether there can be I useful to you and your command? As the cartoonist and the schedule, I can draw series of pictures, which will decorate your sites, offices, a background in video films. As a scripwriter, I can write some scripts of films, with use of my, foreign sight at things which can become popular. It (for example), «Buck Angel in a bath», «Adventures in army», «the Trance magic in prison». Something can be taken from my monography «History of eunuchs», etc.
Please, answer, if I am more interesting to you. There can be I can be useful partners for someone from your partners and friends?
Once again I wish to tell, that you the good fellow, the fine guy!
I wish you all the best.
I’m looking forward to your reply.
The best regards to all your friends and company.

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I officially released my mobile website buckangel.mobi I am super excited to be taking my content to a new technology. I believe that the world will be totally mobile within 5 years or maybe less. So I am hoping I am way ahead of the ball game with this release.I am working with a great company called spankmo

I have had so many customers ask me when I was going to be making content for the phone that I finally had to meet my customer demand. I think it is so cool that you can watch my films on your phone anytime you want. Please check it out and if you have any suggestions about what you would like to see please send me an email at buckangel at buckangel dot com

Buck Angel Mobile

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Buck Angel

***Beautiful***

He is beautiful, so very beautiful
Just like a winter's shining landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue

His eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea
Everything about him is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
His soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
His feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode
His smile is the smile of lost innocence.

Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at him and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle within him.

He is beauty as I defined it,
He is perfect, his imperfections make him so.
He is my best friend, and I love him,
I love him although, not because.

And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold his beauty within me,
For he is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in him.

WOW! I was just reading Dan Savage’s blog and he is at the Kinsey Institute doing a tour and speaking and he came across my photo hanging in the gallery! Totally awesome. I feel so honored. Check out the whole story on Dan’s blog.

WOOF!!

Buck

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Hi Buck!

I know you probs hear this everyday, but I thought id throw my thanks on the pile.

Pre-transition I wanted to transition very badly, but never thought i would. I thought that as a Transman i would have to get bottom surgery to be "real" and wouldn't be able to give up likeing to 'bottom' every now and again.

When I finally stumbled across your site, I actually might have cried a little. Because I thought, here is someone who has actually done it. Has said this is what I am, fuck you if you don't like it.
I don't want to say I never would have started the transition process without seeing your site, but I think I would have started a lot later and been a lot more trepidatious about my future.

Thank you. really. Thank you for putting yourself out there. Your not only educating the world and re-defining gender, but your a lighthouse of sorts helping to guide the next generation of trans folk.
You rock. Thank you.