Transexual Man - Buck Angel FTM Pornstar

Hi Buck,
For a while now, I've been thinking about emailing you but I know how busy you are. But today I thought fuck it! Better off out my system and to share my story. Please don't worry, it's a good email :)
I have always admired you as a person. You do so much for people who are transgendered, who are gay/lesbian/bisexual and also for other charities and causes. A bit about myself. I'm 24, living in Brighton, UK. My dad is gay and I've known this since I was 12. Even though my parents are no longer together, they are still the best of friends and they are actually closer now then they were when they were still living together. My dad isn't open about his sexuality as his side of the family disagree with it and no one in his side of the family know. Yet now, he introduces his friends to my mum and my mum loves that! Myself and my sister have always been raised and told to accept people as their are, not what their are. And I still believe that. Especially now that I love in Brighton, which is known as UK's gay capital, I have met so many great and wonderful people and that's why I love Brighton (if you haven't been here, you definitely should in your next UK trip! You would love it and you will be greatly welcomed!).
My point in sharing my story and wanting to email you is to thank you personally for what you have done and continue to do. I have watched your films and some of them are quite naughty ;) I love all of your work - whether it's your films, photoshoots, media and press but also what you do for human rights and also animal rights. Not many people do that as a whole and you do such a great job of it.
Again, I hope you don't mind me emailing you as I know you're a busy man but like I said, I've always wanted to email you at some point and today is the day.
Thanks for everything you do darling.
Much love,

Hi Buck,

I'm sure you get plenty of emails telling you this - well, clearly - but I thought I'd throw in my appreciation-cents too.

I am a transsexual gay male. I'm really in the early stages of transitioning - I haven't had a session with a therapist of any sort yet, apart from a screening with a psychotherapist (I'm transitioning care of the National Health Service here in Britain). Nevertheless, I've been 'out' and living as male for the most part among most of my family and friends since November of 2008. I've always had a dream to be a male model, though I really doubt I'm good looking enough, and I love the photos I've seen of you. It's been inspirational.

When I decided to transition, I had one major concern: "bottom" surgery. My problem was that I didn't like the options available or the possibility of losing sensation for something that just wasn't for me. I respect other transmen who have metoidio/phalloplasty, it's their choice, but I always get frustrated when they (or non-trans people) assume I'm also planning to have one of these surgeries. I dunno how to say to them that I'm comfortable with my gear and using it with men; I started feeling like a bit of a madman. Then I came across you and other transmen who haven't had genital reconstruction, who were open and proud of their decision to forego it - for whatever reason - and I felt much more confident and comfortable about my own feelings.

So, thanks for being who you are, despite all the grief you must get from small-minded persons (trans and non-trans). You're a great man with a fuckin' fabulous body. I'll probably never get to meet you, so just thought I'd send this to say thank you. :)

- RH.

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Dear Buck,

My name is Kish Khan.

I'm pleased to hear of your success in this new dimension of porn.

I am a 26th years old transman of British Asian. I've got beige skin. I have done massage and escort work in the past but since my scars and experiencing very long delays on the NHS I haven't been able to continue my work.

I had my first stage phalloplasty but not my second stage. No balls and still have my pussy.

My doctor has referred me to plastic surgeon regarding the scars on my stomach, but it could take a while.

I am writing to you because I am interested in working in porn with you. Could please let me know if you are interested and, if so, how many trans guys are already working with you?


I have been waiting for a long time for my operation but also would like to get on with my life and this possible opportunity you talk about in your website.


Please feel free to ask me any questions

I am eager to know what direction to take at this point in my life and also if we could be any mutual benefit to each other

Regards,

Kish

Mr. Angel, I just found out about you and I have to say, you've opened my eyes to something I was never sure could be... I could go on but that would be silly. I just wanted to bestow my praise and adoration upon you and ask a question or two, which I will understand completely if you don't/can't answer. Did you experience any negative effects from the process you went through to be yourself, such as side effects or problems? Also, how had you legal status changed (did your gender change legally or would it have to be?) I ask because I am married and would be afraid of voiding that, unless of course I found a loop hole?.. I digress though, clearly these are things I need to research for myself but I wanted some words of wisdom from someone as accomplished as you.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and have a great day!

Greetings from Russia

Dear Buck Angel!

With greater interest I have looked your remarkable sites. You well done! You have made yourself in the best kind. I can envy only.
Let’s give we shall get acquainted, and may be we’ll become friends or partners?
My name is Yuri. I’m a transgender man (bisexual man which dreams to look so as you). I’m married. My wife - Valentine - all knows and understands.
I live in the Volga region (Russia) - in the country where criminal dictatorship corrects. Therefore, that is connected with sexual desires and aspirations, here it is very difficult to realize much. Before I not bad cooperated with «Boy’s own» of Stephen Whittle (UK), with «Touchstone» (Bristol, UK), with «Transformation» magazine (USA), etc. But, unfortunately, I have connections with many persons: 4 years I was in constant travels on the country.
Certainly, if in Russia there was other conditions and other authority, you could be here, as «the first guy». I would assist to generate here for you good image. It is the quite good market. I hope, that times will change soon.
Now about myself a little.
I am a professional journalist (the former military journalist), the writer, the poet-satirist, a scripwriter, the actor of a colloquial genre, the expert on advertising and carrying out of show-programs; and also - the cartoonist and the schedule.
I attach some my author’s charge, graphic works and cartoons (as example) to the letter.
I search for good friends and producers in other countries with which it is possible to do great affairs.
Whether there can be I useful to you and your command? As the cartoonist and the schedule, I can draw series of pictures, which will decorate your sites, offices, a background in video films. As a scripwriter, I can write some scripts of films, with use of my, foreign sight at things which can become popular. It (for example), «Buck Angel in a bath», «Adventures in army», «the Trance magic in prison». Something can be taken from my monography «History of eunuchs», etc.
Please, answer, if I am more interesting to you. There can be I can be useful partners for someone from your partners and friends?
Once again I wish to tell, that you the good fellow, the fine guy!
I wish you all the best.
I’m looking forward to your reply.
The best regards to all your friends and company.

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***Beautiful***

He is beautiful, so very beautiful
Just like a winter's shining landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue

His eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea
Everything about him is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
His soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
His feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode
His smile is the smile of lost innocence.

Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at him and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle within him.

He is beauty as I defined it,
He is perfect, his imperfections make him so.
He is my best friend, and I love him,
I love him although, not because.

And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold his beauty within me,
For he is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in him.

WOW! I was just reading Dan Savage’s blog and he is at the Kinsey Institute doing a tour and speaking and he came across my photo hanging in the gallery! Totally awesome. I feel so honored. Check out the whole story on Dan’s blog.

WOOF!!

Buck

Hi Buck!

I know you probs hear this everyday, but I thought id throw my thanks on the pile.

Pre-transition I wanted to transition very badly, but never thought i would. I thought that as a Transman i would have to get bottom surgery to be "real" and wouldn't be able to give up likeing to 'bottom' every now and again.

When I finally stumbled across your site, I actually might have cried a little. Because I thought, here is someone who has actually done it. Has said this is what I am, fuck you if you don't like it.
I don't want to say I never would have started the transition process without seeing your site, but I think I would have started a lot later and been a lot more trepidatious about my future.

Thank you. really. Thank you for putting yourself out there. Your not only educating the world and re-defining gender, but your a lighthouse of sorts helping to guide the next generation of trans folk.
You rock. Thank you.

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Oh great handsome one,

I'm actually having coffee with a brand new transman and your name came into our conversation. We are wondering how you can "market" yourself as the man with a pussy. For my part, I find it very difficult to be a man and tell people I still have some of my originals parts (!!!!!). For many trans guys, having a vagina isn't something that we will advertise or even feel right about. How does your gay acting partner feel about sex scenes with you ? At some point, do they think that all transmen want to be penetrated or like frontal sex ? Do you feel, that you need to educate them about that ?

I know that you love your work and that you are really proud of all that you have achieved but I think that the trans community would really like that you specify that the way you live your sexuality doesn't reflect the sexuality of all transmen.

Hope to hear from you soon,

Take care

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WOOF!

BUCK

Many years ago, I was deeply in love with a “straight” guy whom I moved a couple of thousand miles and across about six states to be with, but let’s not go there! Needless to say that he used to tell me he could never get into the “ass-fucking” a guy thing, and the only way he could ever see himself settling down with a guy is if he had a pussy. And there you have it...I was his best friend and confidante, closer to him than most of the girls he ever screwed. But as long as I had just an ass and a dick, we could never be as “tight” as I wanted to be with him.

But it got me thinking...I had dated a few girls before learning to accept myself as a gay man. I’ve even had sex with a couple. But what would it be like...to be able to have a hot guy for a lover who actually had a pussy? Alas, I would never know what that would feel like...but thanks to you, I now know that it’s possible.

Titan has long been one of my favorite companies. As a writer of stroke fiction and a gay porn movie reviewer, I’ve seen a wide range of stuff. As a video store clerk at a place that sold all kinds of adult vids, I thought I’d seen it all. But that was before I saw the previews to something called CIRQUE NOIR. Now, I am usually a “vanilla” kind of guy. I like hot, straight-ahead sex with just that little twist of ‘kink’ every now and then. I don’t do the FALLEN ANGEL stuff – leather, live, real-time piercings, fisting, spitting, piss-drinking...none of that is on my menu. And no, I’ve never seen CIRQUE NOIR all the way through, either. But I couldn’t stop thinking about YOU. I knew about MTF and FTM transsexuals, and knew a lot more about MTF’s than their counterparts, mostly because there are MTF videos and movies galore. I mean, some of them even have roles on mainstream entertainment, both in movies and on TV! But before you, the butchest and closest celeb to anything that might be FTM – at least for me – was k.d. Lang, and she’s still physically a woman – as far as I know.

But you are the first, ‘in-ya-face’, straight up FTM I have ever seen who left me with my mouth open, my dick raging hard...and wanting to know more about FTM ‘tranny men.’ It’s spellbinding, confounding...and hot as hell! I think the last time I had a reaction like this was when I first heard “Lola” by The Kinks. You are as revolutionary to the porn world as that song was to rock. There will be many imitators that follow, but only one original.

I hear you about moving out of the United States. It’s my home country, but I don’t think it’s ever been as much of a fucking mess as it is right this minute. As a black man, as a gay man, as a BLACK GAY MAN in an interracial relationship...I often wonder what kind of a future my partner and I will have, if things keep going the way they have been. If I had the money and the resources to get us both the fuck out of here, to move to Amsterdam or Berlin or the Spanish coast or hell...just anywhere but here, I’d do it in a heartbeat.

Right now, I would just settle for the courage to be myself with everyone, and fuck what anybody else thinks. And that’s why I admire you as much for what you have accomplished, as I do for that sizzling hot stud body you’ve built with a little “some’n-some’n” extra. I will probably be a member of your website by the time you get this, and I am sorry that things are so extreme here in AmeriKKKa right now, that you possibly felt the need to get out just to insure your own personal safety. I’m sorrier still that because of that, I might never get the chance to meet you in person. But I did want to let you know that if your intention was to educate as well as fascinate and titillate, you have succeeded beyond your wildest dreams...at least with one guy!

Dear Buck,

My name is Mark, I am a 100% totally gay man. However, I have to tell you the truth. I happen to think that you are without a doubt one of the hottest, sexiest awesome dudes I have ever seen in my life. You completely get my harmones raging. I first saw you on Maury, and I could not believe my eye's. For the longest time I have had a thing for men who look like you. And when I saw You, you were the one who did it for me. 100% SEXY! WOOF-DADDY. Kitty is one luck lady....Much love and respect my friend, Mark

Hi Buck

my name is Marco, I live in Amsterdam and work for an escort agency.

I saw Buck tonight on tv interviewed in a talk show called Jensen! I didn't know Buck existed, I must admit it, but like many others, I was fascinated from the beginning.

No metaphysical explanation, I would just like to meet him, look into his eyes and french kiss him. Maybe take a picture with him. I didn't make it to Wasteland as I was working. Did he perform there? It would have been a good way to see him and maybe get to talk to him.

Hereby I would like to ask you guys where you'll be at in Amsterdam these days. I live here and would just love to get to see you for a minute before you get back to the US.

Hope you'll have the time to let me know where you'll be performing or staying.

Thanks a lot and all the best in Amsterdam.

Big kiss
Marco

Buck Angel's new series sharing his perspective on gender and sexuality, with the accompaniment of a sign language interpreter.

Hi, Buck –

I rented Cirque Noir a while ago, and just bought the extended version, based primarily on your participation in it. I’d never seen or heard of you before this vid came out, but the idea of a “man with a pussy” – especially fuckin’ butch man – intrigued me.

And all I can say – as a 100%, Kinsey 6, gay man – after watching your scenes in both versions is WOW!

I have never ever ever wanted to have anything to do with pussy (being a big ol’ bottom may have something to do with that) but your performance in Cirque Noir really flipped my switch. Great body, butch as all fuck-out, and believe it or not, your cunt turns me on! I love its smoothness and that big clit. I really got off on watching Tober Brandt work your clit during the watersports sequence.

So let’s just say that you’ve turned this 100% gay guy into someone who would gladly go down and eat (and fuck) pussy – but only if that pussy was on a butch FTM man.

Congrats on giving me a huge hardon!

Brad

BTW – Your interview on the bonus disc was also very good. I assume that you’ve endured a helluva lot of these “What’s it like . . ?” sessions before, but even so you very much impressed me with your grace and your attitudes toward sex and gender.

Dear Buck,

You are my total inspiration for someone to stand up and tell your own personal truth to the world.. To telling the world you simply are what you are. I admire you so fucking much. You are just so OUT THERE and honest about who and what you are. I am inspired to do so my my own way in my simple gay male life.

How can I get an autographed photo of you, signed in your own hot little hand specially for me? I'd love to frame it for my wall.

I adore how you tell your own TRUTH by being what you are. Please keep it up.

Dear Buck,

My name is Joy and I live in Southern California. As long as I can remember, I have never wanted breasts. I developed when I was eight yrs old and I never learned to embrace or love my breasts. I constantly tell people that I would love to be flat chested and want to have surgery to make my breasts almost nonexistent. They always think that's strange. Breasts make me feel uncomfortable and restricted. I love being a female, but I don't like having breasts or curves. (A smaller, flatter butt and no hips is another wish of mine.) I came across your site and read your bio. I was thinking "wow, it can be done". Please.... could you tell me what doctor did your breast removal surgery? I love that you have no scars. It is amazing. Thanks.

Sincerely,
Joy